The vampire heiress is two-faced

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Solid was unaware that the devout and courageous "Lionheart Knight" she described existed only in her imagination.

Chapter 87 A Beacon in the Long Night

Five years is neither a long nor a short time; it is enough for a young girl whose worldview has not yet been formed to be transformed into a devout nun through the cumulative influence of her upbringing.

This also led her to be unable to honestly face her own feelings due to the constraints of her beliefs.

She longed for the image of that young knight, but felt too ashamed to speak out. She could only stay in a corner of the church with him, just as she had done countless days and nights before, quietly listening as he poured out his heart to her.

"What's wrong, Solid?"

"N-nothing, Lord Yin Shang. Is there something you need?"

"I already said, just call me as you always have."

"How can that be? You're a knight of the Church now, and I'm still just a nun..."

Yin Shang shook his head: "Sigh. Such outdated class concepts are why I dislike those old fogies."

He looked at the distant night sky, his blue eyes now holding less of the youthful passion and more of a mature melancholy.

"Solid, you and I are both mixed-race with black hair and blue eyes. Maybe we really are siblings?"

"No way! How could that be!" Solid's face turned bright red.

Yin Shang smiled and patted her head, acting completely at ease.

The awkwardness and shyness of youth, like

It has now completely disappeared.

"But I've always thought of you as my little sister."

Solid's flushed cheeks puffed out as she shook off Yin Shang's large hand.

"Brother Yin... so that's how you see me. Although I've always called you brother, I still don't want..."

She shook her head.

"No, no, you can't have those kinds of thoughts about knights."

Yin Shang scratched his head, neither commenting on her strange behavior nor saying anything, and continued talking to himself.

“I say, Solid. You should know why I became a church knight.”

"I know. Brother Yin wants to become a hero who punishes evil and promotes good, fighting against the dark and filthy demons..."

"No. I do want to punish evil and promote good, but I don't want to be a hero."

Yin Shang denied it.

"I have no desire to fight any monsters."

...

This young man, only twenty years old, became the renowned Lionheart Knight in just a few short years after becoming a knight.

In the "dark side of the world," inaccessible to ordinary people, he wielded the holy and intense power, blessed by the Holy Light he received from the church, and slayed all kinds of demons with fear.

But to the bewilderment of the church, friends, colleagues, subordinates, and even Solid, he had yet to receive his own "holy relic".

In other words, he stands out among the few church knights today by wielding holy light with his physical body alone, and has even earned an exclusive knight title, so his strength is beyond doubt.

Despite the suspicions of others, no one knew the true thoughts of the Lionheart Knight.

Do you want to know why?

Yin Shang said to Solid.

“You’re my dear sister, that’s why I feel comfortable telling you this. It’s really frustrating to keep things bottled up.”

...

After seeing Solid nod silently, Yin Shang began to speak slowly and wistfully.

"When I was a child, I thought that after receiving the blessing of the Holy Light... it would help me complete my revenge."

"But after I became a knight, I discovered that the Holy Light had no effect on good people, even if they genuinely believed they were 'good'."

"Holy Light is ultimately a power that can only be used to punish demons. To ordinary people with no evil intentions, it is nothing more than a light that doesn't hurt or itch."

Yin Shang smiled bitterly.

"Can someone who can deceive the Holy Light still be considered human?"

"If I can deceive the Holy Light by firmly believing that I am a good person, then how can receiving those holy artifacts blessed by the Holy Light help me? So of course I didn't receive any holy artifacts."

...

Yin Shang's words startled Solid, leaving her mind reeling.

She never imagined that the guiding light in her heart would begin to question the authority of the Holy Light...

What's even more terrifying is that from the very beginning, he wanted to use the Holy Light to "take revenge" on a human!

"Brother Yin...you...you're joking, right?"

She clung to Yin Shang, seemingly lost in thought.

"You are such a devout and excellent knight, everyone in the church has witnessed it! What you just said... I... I can pretend I didn't hear it!"

...

Yin Shang shook his head.

"Solid, there are some things I hope you can know as well."

"What I'm saying isn't just empty talk. For example, I have further evidence that the Holy Light has been deceived..."

Yin Shang's expression flashed, as if he was quickly thinking about something.

"It's about the fact that the Church's missing Four Sacred Relics may have been defiled, and those few esteemed figures trusted by the Pope... well, let's not talk about it. Knowing these things won't do you any good."

He opened his palm, and a few strands of golden silk-like light swirled around it, then gradually dissipated into the night.

"It is common knowledge that those who turn to darkness and whose faith is not sincere will be rejected by the Holy Light. But I firmly believe that I am not that kind of person, and I firmly believe that what I have done is what I consider to be 'justice'. Therefore, the blessing of the Holy Light has not left me."

“I will continue to use my power to slay demons and monsters, but I may have to leave the church and give up being the ‘Knight of the Lionheart’.”

"Because there are 'monsters' in this world that are far more terrifying than the vampires, the king of all demons. I've realized that continuing to be a church knight won't get rid of him, so of course I have to think of another way."

He said with a wry smile.

"Ah, Sister Solid. That's why I've come back to say goodbye. It may be difficult to see you again..."

...

Solid grabbed Yin Shang suddenly, her eyes glistening with tears.

"Brother Yin... Brother Yin!"

"A wise man once said that those who slay dragons will eventually be stained with the blood of dragons and become dragons themselves. The modern-day Knights of the Church have also lost their piety due to years of fighting monsters. You... you must be too tired from fighting for too long to say that!"

She spoke in a trembling voice.

"Right? Right? You're different from those church knights, I know that!"

"You must be exhausted. Come, let's go to the prayer room. I'll pray with you..."

...

Yin Shang looked at her, shaking his head with mixed feelings.

"Solid, you used to have the courage to run away from your home and fight against domestic violence..."

"Perhaps I should have found a way to send you to a normal orphanage back then, but it's hindsight to say that now. After all, I didn't know back then that you would become like this under the baptism of holy light..."

Yin Shang couldn't bear to judge the girl he regarded as his younger sister, but when no one was around, he still spoke his mind.

“You’ve changed. I haven’t seen that brave look on your face when you stood up against bullying in a long time.”

"Right now, you're like a slave, firmly enslaved by the Holy Light. Like a mere messenger, devoid of any thoughts of your own."

Yin Shang sighed deeply. His last look at Solid was one of regret, reluctance, and self-reproach for not standing up for himself.

"I won't be able to come back for a long time. The church is going to transfer me to Debrecen to assist Archbishop Schroed in dealing with the local monsters."

"After completing this task, I will leave the Order of the Church to continue plotting my revenge."

...

The girl collapsed to the ground, clutching her chest in pain.

"But you...you are my guiding light..."

Yin Shang glanced at her sideways and sighed softly.

“I was never your hope, your beacon. Someone like me is not worthy of your high expectations. I am just a pitiful person who has been robbed of everything, using everything to seek revenge in a one-sided way.”

“But I have never taken advantage of you, Solid. Because I have always considered you my family, my…sister.”

"It may be a good thing for you to continue to spend each peaceful day under the guidance of the Holy Light. From now on, forget about me as soon as possible, Solid."

...

The black-haired, blue-eyed youth disappeared into the depths of the corridor, leaving only the young nun slumped on the ground, utterly distraught.

"No...don't go! Brother Yin!"

Chapter 88 Enlightenment

"..."

"Holy Light...please guide me..."

"Holy Light... please answer me..."

"Please, please..."

The girl's voice trembled as she clutched the sacred, silver-white cross tightly in her hands, continuously chanting the prayer that should have brought her peace.

"God, please tell me, how can I... how can I..."

Even sacred prayers could not bring inner peace to the devout believer. The girl fell into confusion and despair, the emptiness in her heart never to be filled.

...

"What's wrong with Sister Solid? She doesn't look well..."

"It was the first time I had ever seen her like that."

"She has been kneeling in the prayer room praying alone for hours. She has been doing this every day recently."

"To be honest, she's looked like this ever since that Lionheart Knight came back last time."

...

When a person whose body and mind have been long tormented is saved by a person or even an object by chance—

That person was like a landlubber about to drown, saved by a bundle of straw at the last moment before he was drowning.

As long as the "lifeline" can continue to accompany this person, their behavior will be no different from that of an ordinary person;

As time goes by, this person will gradually develop an increasingly strong dependence on and infatuation with the "lifeline".

This happiness and sense of self, built upon an extreme dependence on external things, will crumble the moment they are lost.

The gentle and kind Sister Solid grew up under the influence of the Church and the protection of her "brother," something she herself never imagined—

If one day, without the protection of the holy light and without the boy's companionship, how will she survive alone in this world?

"Severely traumatic post-traumatic dependence" is the only explanation that can summarize Solid's fragile soul.

The moment she was freed from that hellish home, her fate for the rest of her life was sealed.

Even though her faith was unwavering, even though there was a religion

The elders in the hall took meticulous care of her, and under the blow of Yin Shang's words, she could no longer find peace of mind through prayer.

Yin Shang's departure was not only hard for her to accept, but his last words also dealt a heavy blow to her beliefs.

How can such holy light be trusted?

She wanted to refute Yin Shang's words, so she came to pray for a response from the Holy Light.

But the warm and dazzling light from the cross in her hand could no longer bring her peace.

"Holy Light, tell me... why won't you answer me..."